November 30, 2004

Beautiful lines

Again, I found these lines on a poem Ashish wrote. He's such a warrior-poet... I promise to write something of my own next time, but I just had to have these lines. I'm memorizing them. If you want to read the whole poem "Standing" go to Ashish's Web

Through the pain , and through you loss,
Never forget, what you lost
For love keeps the beat of the heart going
Don't lose your heart's desire
In life's quagmire
A hope-filled existence is all

November 23, 2004

A song

Here's a song that one of my friends from Canada wrote. It's beautiful! He's really talented, there's no doubt God is up to something... He sure is a man of God. I hope you'll be blessed with this song as much as I was.

A Lovesong...

Through The Pain
by Ashish Joy

You speak to my heart with perfection
Your heart feels the beat of mine
Your hand holds me in my struggles
Your glory resides upon my life
Through the pain, I feel your presence surrounding me
In life's heartbreaks, I still know you're there
In abandon, you lavish your unfailing love
More than ever, you're my love, my friend
O Lord your ways, it goes beyond my understanding of you
I'll just leave my ways and paths under your care
For you knew my heart of old when I knew you not
And you conquered me with love, O my friend
You call me yours alone, even in my times of pain
I know you'll be my source of hope and strength
In the midst of your assembly will I sing forth praise
To a God on high, whose love has no end

November 10, 2004

Dreams, dreams, and more dreams...

Given the fact that for the last couple of months I have found myself dormant, lazy and without passion, I have decided to stop this cycle and once more run into the arms of the Almighty to have my life back.
I used to be passionate about God, His children, prayer... I miss Him so much, I miss spending long hours with Him listening to His sweet, sweet voice. I miss having a purpose, a reason to be, to live, to breath. I miss my first love: Jesus.
Today I pray that this will be the last day of my purposeless life. I'm just putting an end to this life of mine which can drive me into the path of death, and worse of eternal separation from my God. Purpose will be my anthem, and in God alone I will find the meaning of that word.
I'm getting my dreams, my aspirations, my passion and desire, my reason to live; all back.
Therefore, I decided to answer seven question which I found in pp 50 of If You Want to Walk on Water You've got to Get out of the Boat by John Ortberg.
So the question, which is the same question I've been pondering about for these last couple of weeks is: What is my deepest dream?
Ever since I was a little girl (about 4 years old) I felt a strong call from God. I wanted to worship. My dream is to worship God with my whole being, with my actions, my words, my voice, my life...
In worshiping God I want to bring honor to His name, and in honoring Him I would bring other people to the knowledge of God.
I know that when people worship God, He delivers them from their chains, their boundaries, their yoke. Those who live a life of worship know what freedom means. Jesus is the Way, the Thruth, the Life. In living a life of worship I acknowledge that He is my only Way, my only Thruth, my Life. He holds the keys to life and death, and if I go to Him with my boundaries, with my chains, He, the Key Master will deliver me.
I am weak and not afraid to recognize the areas where I've failed, yet I find that when I fail and in my weaknesses I go to my Emmanuel in worship, then, He delivers me.
In those times of deliverance, He loves me and gives me dreams. My deepest dream is and will always be to worship because I've got nothing left to do, but to worship and love the God who has given me all things.

If I know the meaning of love is because He has pour out all His love upon me. I love Him so very much. Every palpitation within my heart is for Him. Every breath that I take feels like Him. Everywhere I turn I see His face. Every droop of rain smells like Him. I feel His fragrance all over me. I love HIM.
Lord I love you with every piece of my insignificant been, with every piece of my heart, with every drop of my blood, with all that I am. My Jesus I love you more than any living thing on earth.





Como a nadie en esta tierra yo te amo y nunca me voy a cansar de decirtelo. Por que me amas, yo soy tuya; soy una esclava por amor. Porque un dia en tu presencia es mejor que mil fuera de ella (Sal. 24)


Aunque mis ojos no te puedan ver,
se que estas ahi, Tu estas aqui.
Aunque mis manos no pueden tocar
tu rostro mi Amor, se que estas aqui.
-Vastago Producciones 2004

**I pray that you may come to know the Giver of Life and Freedom everyday more and more. Call upon His name, I assure you He will never leave you, nor forsake you. Just ask Him to come into your heart and seek His face.



November 09, 2004

Wondering

I been wondering for the last couple of weeks about my life. There is always a point in life where one must stop, look around, and analyze what is being seen.
One thing that's been around my mind for a while is the famous question my parents have asked me ever since I was 6: What do you want? Is what you want what you really need?
Think about it.
In trying to answer this question I wonder whether what I want right now is what I really need. How essential is this thing that I want, that I long for? In the given case that this want is a need, how am I suppose to know that this want is a real need? Or even worse, that this want is not a need.
I might not make sense to you, and it doesn't make sense to me either, so I'm trying to figure this out.
My brain is a giant revolution of thought. God, Family, Church, School, Work... So many things to be thinking about, so many feelings to endure and control. Now that I come to realize I might be in love... It feels good though, tastes like a delicacy, it's as if I am flying with angels. I even forget that I'm cold, that I'm hungry. But again, here's that question again: Is this what I want AND need?
I need prayer. Please pray for me.

In hot pursuit,

AD...etc